searchingtofit

wild-for-wanderlust:

I want to starve myself until I am so skinny, im taken to hospital. Only then will i feel truly beautiful.

I have to say, I am going through recovery right now, and it’s not as beautiful as it “seems”…
Not at all.

Especially when you get told that the potassium levels in your blood are so high because of your ed that you have a high chance of dropping dead…

I was going to delete this… But then I thought no, it’s better for people to be able to relate to both sides of me, and hopefully understand how truly ugly eating disorders are. Especially when you’re struggling with one every single day until you finally win!

I can’t wait until I cut the head off this beast and feel free.